Waiting for the Mom

Interesting life this one.

I could start off nearly everything I write... ever... with that little sentance.

I have been waiting for my mom to get online for the past two hours. As Moldova is two hours ahead of us, and she said she would be home at three her time, that she has not been on and it is 3 London time means... I am about to give up.

Meanwhile, in another part of my brain, I am trying to keep in mind what is going on with other parts of my family. My 93-year-old grandmother broke her hip and has been moved to hospice as surgery would not actually help her and the experts have apparently informed my family there that this is it for her.

She has always been a formidable force in my family, this grandmother. And although she and I have not seen eye-to-eye on nearly anything, it is amazing to consider that someone is going through such a phenomenal transition right now. Someone I am related to. One of my foremothers. Someone I love.

And of course, it is this intellectual/emotional/spiritual detachment that is mitigating the actual distance I feel from my family, a distance that is about average of what the distance has been over the years, physically, but has changed as far as how often we are in touch because of all the technologies at our disposal. This distance is my own personal version of my family's comfort level, lacking much in the way of ceremony or shared ways of marking transitions.

And although for some reason my lunch made me really very tired for some unknown reason, and the heat probably isn't helping, I am set on getting out on my bike today, going to run some errands, pick up my UK equivalent of a social security number, visiting a yoga store where I applied for a job, and eventually end up at "Ally Pally" (Alexandra Palace) where I will read, relax, and probably write some more of my super-secret book.

Fighting through the weird tiredness is interesting though. I am afraid of having of having one of those auto-immune mystery diseases because as it stands now, I could probably sleep 9-10 hours a night anyway, and take naps! Amazing being of kapha constitution. No nap, gonna go!!!

Would tea help?